{"id":3760,"date":"2019-09-03T12:40:10","date_gmt":"2019-09-03T12:40:10","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.mtls.ca\/issue27\/?p=3760"},"modified":"2023-08-18T22:56:00","modified_gmt":"2023-08-18T22:56:00","slug":"pauline-peters","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.mtls.ca\/issue27\/pauline-peters\/","title":{"rendered":"Pauline Peters"},"content":{"rendered":"<h3 style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Communion<\/h3>\n<p>Darkness weighs<br \/>\nabout seventeen kilograms per unit.<br \/>\nIt tastes like salt and iron.<br \/>\nI have held it and tasted it.<br \/>\nBelieve me.<\/p>\n<p>The feel of darkness varies.<br \/>\nSome days it has the consistency<br \/>\nof cold molasses,<br \/>\nother days the granular feel<br \/>\nof wet sand.<br \/>\nI have carried it many days.<br \/>\nBelieve me.<\/p>\n<p>It is possible to cut darkness into pieces<br \/>\nand put it under your pillow.<br \/>\nThis will ensure a deep and instant sleep.<br \/>\nBut this is a waste of darkness.<br \/>\nBelieve me.<\/p>\n<p>Instead, cut your darkness into wafers<br \/>\nand place one on your tongue.<br \/>\nLet the wafer dissolve, just like a communion.<br \/>\nYou will have visions.<br \/>\nYou will travel inside.<br \/>\nBelieve me.<\/p>\n<p>You will have visions of a slow and lonely past&nbsp;<br \/>\nwhere there were many hungers<br \/>\nand your soul was robbed clean.<br \/>\nYou will remember how you were<br \/>\nshattered and broken<br \/>\nbeyond the word for hurt.<\/p>\n<p>And when you see that despite this<br \/>\nyou are whole and you are magnificent,<br \/>\nthen you will begin to admire<br \/>\nthe darkness that made you.<\/p>\n<p>You will stroke its sleek panther hide,<br \/>\npractise its prowling, sexy walk<br \/>\nand fill your throat with<br \/>\nits deep and dangerous purr.<\/p>\n<p>You will find that you can see in the dark<br \/>\nusing only your fingertips<br \/>\nand the soles of your feet,<br \/>\nand you will find yourself<br \/>\ndancing a slow, fierce flamenco<br \/>\nof light and dark<br \/>\nwhere each in turn<br \/>\nleads the other.<\/p>\n<h3 style=\"font-weight: 400;\">More Than the Absence of Light<\/h3>\n<p style=\"font-weight: 400;\">And so we mine ourselves for blackness<br \/>\nduring the long white nights.<\/p>\n<p style=\"font-weight: 400;\">We burn her in our fire pits and she gives us heat<br \/>\nShe gives us the heat that warms our marrow.<\/p>\n<p style=\"font-weight: 400;\">We wrap our souls inside her like infants in a blanket<br \/>\nBlackness is the ballast that holds us to the ground.<\/p>\n<p style=\"font-weight: 400;\">She moves across the earth, an implacable wind<br \/>\nShe is the key to our freedom, the moment of escape<br \/>\nShe quenches our fatigue.<\/p>\n<p style=\"font-weight: 400;\">She is basalt solid rhythm rooted in earth<br \/>\nShe laps at the edges of day.<\/p>\n<p style=\"font-weight: 400;\">And when it is time to honour her pact with ashes<br \/>\nshe surrenders our names and relinquishes our bodies<br \/>\nshe relinquishes our bodies to dust.<em>&nbsp;<\/em><\/p>\n<h3 style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Glossolalia<\/h3>\n<p style=\"font-weight: 400;\">It was we three walking,<br \/>\nsinging across the city,<br \/>\nspinning the world beneath our feet.<br \/>\nWe were smaller then,<br \/>\nour figures enviable,<br \/>\nyouth cascading,<br \/>\na rush of waters down our backs.<br \/>\nWe loved our women,<br \/>\nwe loved our men,<br \/>\nbut passion was our talk \u2013<br \/>\nwe spoke in tongues,<br \/>\ngiving the ancestors voice,<br \/>\ntrying to understand<br \/>\ntheir songs and silences.<br \/>\nIn trying we baffled the long pavements,<br \/>\njoyous, we baffled ourselves.<em>&nbsp;<\/em><\/p>\n<h3 style=\"font-weight: 400;\">The Brother of Jesus<\/h3>\n<p style=\"font-weight: 400;\">The brother of Jesus works hard<br \/>\nAnd walks head down,<br \/>\nFists inside his pockets.<br \/>\nThe water in his cup slakes his thirst<br \/>\nBut does not make him drunk.<br \/>\nThe loaves of bread he brings home for his children<br \/>\nDivide but do not multiply.<br \/>\nHe preaches no sermons,<br \/>\nNot on the mount,<br \/>\nOr anywhere else that matters.<br \/>\nHe can barely get his own children to hear him.<\/p>\n<p style=\"font-weight: 400;\">His few friends are not disciples.<br \/>\nHe sits with them in dark taverns where<br \/>\nThey discuss the wiles of women,<br \/>\nThey discuss their varied assets<br \/>\nAnd ways to unveil and bed them.<br \/>\nThey bet on camels and drink away<br \/>\nA good portion of what they earn.<br \/>\nThey mock his brother Jesus,<br \/>\nSo earnest, so sincere,<br \/>\nAnd it seems, apparently,<br \/>\nNot at all afraid to die.<\/p>\n<p style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Walking home drunk<br \/>\nThe brother of Jesus remembers games<br \/>\nWith balls made out of leather.<br \/>\nHe remembers raiding beehives<br \/>\nAnd making soldiers out of clay.<br \/>\nHe remembers quarrels over<br \/>\nWho should shovel piles of steaming sheep dung.<br \/>\nHe remembers fighting in the red dirt<br \/>\nOver the last piece of kanafeh.<\/p>\n<p style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Wine filled, swaying<br \/>\nAnd doomed to life,<br \/>\nHe sometimes stands alone<br \/>\nAt the edges of crowds<br \/>\nWho mob his lightning brother.<\/p>\n<p style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Jesus looks so small there \u2013<br \/>\nSo brown, so bright, so brave, so young<br \/>\nSo breakable and so alone \u2013<br \/>\nDespite the worshipping crowds<br \/>\nWho surround him.<\/p>\n<p style=\"font-weight: 400;\">The brother of Jesus watches with awe,<br \/>\nWith pity and with pride,<br \/>\nWith envy and also gnawing fear,<br \/>\nAnd stumbling away the brother of Jesus<br \/>\nShakes his own dark head,<br \/>\nUnaware of the faint glow<br \/>\nThat surrounds him.<\/p>\n<p style=\"font-weight: 400;\">&nbsp;<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Communion Darkness weighs about seventeen kilograms per unit. It tastes like salt and iron. I have held it and tasted it. Believe me. The feel of darkness varies. Some days it has the consistency of cold molasses, other days the granular feel of wet sand. I have carried it many days. Believe me. It is possible to cut darkness into&hellip;<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":3,"featured_media":4902,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_monsterinsights_skip_tracking":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_active":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_note":"","_monsterinsights_sitenote_category":0,"ngg_post_thumbnail":0,"footnotes":""},"categories":[7],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-3760","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-poetry"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.mtls.ca\/issue27\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3760","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.mtls.ca\/issue27\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.mtls.ca\/issue27\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.mtls.ca\/issue27\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/3"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.mtls.ca\/issue27\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=3760"}],"version-history":[{"count":12,"href":"https:\/\/www.mtls.ca\/issue27\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3760\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":4907,"href":"https:\/\/www.mtls.ca\/issue27\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3760\/revisions\/4907"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.mtls.ca\/issue27\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/4902"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.mtls.ca\/issue27\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=3760"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.mtls.ca\/issue27\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=3760"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.mtls.ca\/issue27\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=3760"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}